A New Beginning

[lestavillo]

At this stage of the game, I'm probably the only person reading this... and to be quite honest, that's fine with me.

I had started this account with the thought of starting over, then I decided to ditch this account and make my LJ account 'work' since I had never given it a chance to begin with.

I dove into it with total abandon, but I still don't feel comfortable there. This whole concept of virtual friends makes me tired and lonely. I have enough issues with depression to deal with not to make it feel moreso.

SO! In an effort to 'start again', I'm going to give this journal another chance. I want to write original fiction. I want to write stories about my life, my children and the things I see around me. Maybe, if I'm lucky, I may make friends here, but I'd like this to be a journal that I can show to existing friends and real-life friends. I don't want virtual friends anymore, not that they don't exist, but I get more satisfaction out of sitting over coffee with a friend playing Scrabble and yakking than I ever do spending endless hours here.

That's what I want. Friends I can have coffee with. ... Is that so much to ask for? Maybe this is a time for me to start anew -- fresh and without any reservations that anyone is going to be upset by this.

Comments

[keppiehed]

I know this is an old entry, but I'd like to say that you sound like the kind of person I'd like to get to know in RL. Coffee and Scrabble are just up my alley. I know you aren't looking for virtual friends ... and I'm not looking for friends in general, because I have been burned by more than enough of them in the past to be wary. But sometimes when you see someone you take a shine to, you smile and hope you see them around more, and that's you. So, I hope to see you around more, whether it's here or there or wherever, just because I like you. And there is no pressure on your end, none at all. If you don't like friends or want anything online, that's just fine. I just think you're too nice to totally disappear into the ether on my watch, so if I happen to see a comment from you here or there, I may just say hello back!

[lestavillo]

*blushes*

Thank you.

It sounds trite, but I think the same about you. Somehow we need to create that transporter thing they have on star trek.That way we can visit.

Now, I need to figure out how to friend you. I did, but then didn't and I'm still figuring it out.

After all this Twitter and facebook nonsense, I may just move over here, but I'd like to set up a fanfic address as well.

*Sigh* and I just paid for a year's account on LJ.